Tuesday, December 13, 2005

A melancholy town where no one smiles
For those who do, it's split-faced reality for a while




Woke up moping about everything and at anything, and totally dead.

Kissed my uncle & popo goodbye. sigh, i miss them already. rushed off to training, feeling bouncy & bubbly suddenly. it was fun, training i mean. i sound very convincing don't i?

JIAXIN QUICK FLY BACK. YIX, YOU TOO. GENN, DON'T FLY FAR. POTTY GET ME SMTH.

Yes, everyones' flying. they don't give a thought to me, leaving me behind in the dust, they know i'll be missing them till insanity.




A lil' something i conjured up from photoshop. i know this is like mediocre-ish compared to those of yix & janice & all the other people good at cyber stuff. yada yada. i've taken a liking to it, and it's a guitarist. what's not to like?

My class x'mas bbq date ain't confirmed, yet. i'll call ya'll.

The one for bballers is so far a drag, let's just say it's not what i had in mind exactly. sigh, i'm thinking of putting it off. but then, i'll have to go door to door to personally deliver all their presents, which is hell. i'll consider, sparing a thought for my feet.

I want to catch King Kong, it looks way cool. and the graphics is oh. it's either with my sis, or ballers.

Tmr's gonna be a good day. i'll be having math tuition at TLL with Ms Ng & Mao Ler & Lester & Da Yong & Megumi & maybe Evelyn. Mao Ler must be prepared to cheer me up. Also, i may go ice skate with Koonyan & gang before the tuition. the prospects look good.

People, you may catch me on my bad pms times these few days, so i apologize before hand. Unless it's a life ro death situation, please DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT attempt to call or msg me. Unless of course, you're willing to face my mopy side. but, if you're on my those-who-know-my-life's-biggest-secret list of people, then sure, you're an exception.

4 things i believe in:

1. It may sound all mushy & unrealistic, but i do believe in unconditional love. I'm thinking it's the advertising today, everywhere you go you see couples smooching/making out. In the mrt, at malls, in toilets?! And on telly, movies etc, you get all these iloveyoutilltheendoftime blah blah kissmeneverletgo blah blah youjumpi'lljump blah blah crap (crap that i believe in) that plays with your mind. So, it kind of influences you to think hey, maybe there IS such a thing. MAYBE. these are "stuff" that goes through the mind of a hopelessly hopeless romantic.
2. I know when i say my second belief you'll all go "nah pao don't think that way" "come on, have confidence in yourself!" "don't go all mopy on me okay" or something to that effect. But, here's the deal: i believe that i'm destined to be single. now, don't give me all your "think on the bright side stuff", i'm having none of that. I mean i'm seriously a very evil, stubborn, self-centered, smelly, loud, fat, sinister, selfish, ghastly, complainy, tempermental, fraidycat, yada yada person. NO ONE, i'm telling you, NO ONE can stand me, i'm a hard person to get used to. I'm surprised my friends have stayed as my friends for this long, not to mention having a boyfriend? He'll stay 12hours tops. So yes, i'll die a single woman. And i will be happy.
3. Valentine's day is a day for dwebs. I do NOT like that day, and i believe it's stupid & meaningless. Boys sending girls flowers, chocolates, all the lovey dovey mushy bleah stuff. Maybe being someone who never receives anything on that day, so i'm all bitter mode. Unless you have someone special to share with, then it's practically depressing. To me that is, i don't know what other people think. If you already have someone special, then i wish you two well. But if not, get a life. I just can't stand people who go all girly-giggly when they receive something from a certain annoymous person. He-he-he-he, he-he my ass. The whole 24 hours just reminds me that i will end up alone once again, so nornally through grit teeth i will the day to pass faster. Not that i'm protesting when you give me something ;) yar right, i'll get something, yar ha-ha. BITTER MODE.
4. Lollipops are way better than any other candy in the world, even chocolate. It's the king of all candy, second to it is gummys & gum.

News flash: i know how to use photoshop, my new skin is on the way. & i can't wait till i get my mp3 or ipod. & paris hilton sucks, i do not like her. & some x'mas this is.